Saturday, February 15, 2014

shopping again

several recurring images and themes in last night's dream...a bathtub over flowing, which we seemed to be viewing remotely on a video screen that was recording occurrences in in reb and josh's house from which they were being evicted. we were going there, maybe to retrieve belongings, riding a bus. reb made insulting remarks about my hairdo and my sense of style, and my cooking. i slapped her face which seemed horribly disfigured, scarred from a fire perhaps, but with open sores as well. i said something like, " i told you i would slap you if you ever insulted me again," and then after that we seemed to be friends again, stopping at an open market and a thrift store where her friend worked, (maybe kendra?) her friend would let us have whatever we wanted for free. isreal and zelah were small again, and all of us did not have much since the eviction. the store was odd, and didn't have much in the way of useful clothes, but we found a lot of hats and very artsy short miniskirts, not very good for this rainy winter day. we picked out a few things, but i said i wanted to give a donation if i could just find a nice dress. and i wanted something warm for zelah so i got her a blanket/ poncho to wrap up in.  i went to find the donation, and i was embarrassed because my purse spilled everywhere and the lady saw that i had weed in there. it was ok though, she accepted a nug as part of the donation.

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  1. in this dream i am processing some things in regards to an estranged friendship. over the course of years we have hurt/ scarred each other with words and actions, so that now it seems impossible to repair. it seems my subconscious has a need to find some sort of peace regarding that. it also refers to my insecurity regarding my new haircut. the overflowing bathtub probably refers to pent up emotions which need to be somehow expressed. the fact that i viewed it from afar shows how much i have distanced myself from these feelings, but yet, they are still building up. eviction, (something i have been through more than once) relates to insecurities about my home situation, as my finances have been very shaky as of late. there was also a feeling that if we could just find the right thing (the dress) it would solve many of these problems, but we could not find that answer. shopping and water occur very frequently in my dreams. this dream was quite long and elaborate, with many details i do not recall. i am not ready to resolve this friendship, as i still feel that i am owed an apology, hence my dream desire to slap her (already woulded) face.

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