fishing

the fishing is good and we are reeling in the big ones, salmon and others. salvadore, james and layla are in the boat on the river. but then a wave comes over the edge of the boat and we must start bailing it out. we can't bail fast enough and the boat goes under. we frantically try to save our gear and the boat. part two we are having a large garage sale with a lot of large art, after the sale we must move it out and clean it up, but everthing keeps falling apart. people are rushing us, and i start yelling about how everything is going wrong and no one will help us.

million dollar dress...

i am working on computers in a giant corporate building.  they install some strange new program that i don't like because it is evil. i have to keep moving around the building acting busy so they won't find out i am boycotting them. outside there is a massive storm with sheets of rain and fierce winds and lightning striking everywhere. i am inside a large glass atrium, and i want to go home. i can see the giant house outside and i wonder if i should make a run for it, or stay where i am sheltered, not sure if i am safe here either. somehow i get to the house, and it is giant and fancy. zelah, siva, and i live there, but it is also like a shopping mall. they are talking about a million dollar dress, and we are joking about it, wondering why it is so expensive. i say i want to try it on, but the sales people are like "we don't think you have that kind of credit."

sledding on the frozen ocean

she awoke slowly, an image appeared before her of a man, running at her in anger. then it was gone.  she dressed herself warmly to go out and face the weather.  it had snowed again, and she found herself walking on top of a slippery slope.  the cousins were sledding down to the frozen ocean, but the sea was not flat, it was filled with great frozen waves.  the children were sledding into the waves, and she tried it too, scared, skidding out of control, laughing.  the waves begin to thaw and break apart. her brother was sledding down, and he chose a different path than the others.  she watched in horror as he plunged into the icy water.  she went to the edge, waiting fearfully as he was under the water too long. she lay down upon the ice and reached her hand into the frigid water, and he grasped her hand and popped up out of the water laughing, "i fooled you sis" he came out of the water in his dripping snowsuit...

riding a camel

i see the prince impersonator talking with (johnny d?) he is mad at me and will not speak to me, saying i lied to him about something, i apologize, but state that i had been incorrect, not intentionally lying. he still turns and walks away. i am unable to walk and have some kind of rolling device which i must ride on, difficult to maneuver through the crowded street (last thursday?) stop to look at books and movies, but i am a little short on money. a women comes along, riding backwards on a camel! i ask her if i can ride, and she lets me, but the camel bolts and i promptly fall off. i can at least walk normal now. i see my mother, in a field of grass, dappled with sunlight and shade. i go sit with her. someone is lighting fireworks, and one comes right at me lodging in the left side of my neck. we wait nervously for it to explode, unable to get it off for some reason. it finally goes bang, but half of it is still in my neck and i am sure i will have hearing damage. i go to a hospital and must have surgery.

gem teeth

we are visiting a commune in the woods, yet within ptld. city limits. we wake up and people are talking about going for a swim in a deep well. i am wondering if the water is clean/ safe for swimming? as we walk there we pass some shabby buildings, and they are talking about the problems they have here with homeless squatters. we come to a large nice building and go inside. an artist is explaining how he makes dentures, bridges and oral prostheses with semi precious stones. i decide i should get something made. (was just reading that freud had to have his jaw and palate removed due to cancer, and had to wear a painful prosthetic for many years.-the interpretation of dreams-) perhaps i will remeber more details later...

cats in the woods..

we have been camping, and we are driving. mom keeps asking which way to go? i say no, that road is terrible...that one you have to drive across the river...don't know if that one is passable. we see someone camping with their cat, and i remember that shadow has been lost in the woods for a year! mom says we should just leave her there, because she is probably happy there and acclimated to being wild. besides, she is so old, she may not still be alive, and we should just leave her to die. but i insist we stop and call her. is this near our spot? (probably near stinson flats) i call her. i see a young boy holding a kitten. i think i see her! ...nope that cat has dark grey stripes. there she is, nope that one is spotted. i call and call, so many cats in the woods! finally she comes to me and i am so happy, hugging her and taking her home.

not sure exactly what this dream is saying, definitely something about choosing my path, and finding what i am looking for, not giving up on those i love, responsibility. will think on this one.

pregnant?

i need to wake up and get ready for work. my room is a mess and zelah is taking a bath in my room with a bunch of my stuff getting wet in the tub. i get mad at her and start yelling she starts throwing my stuff around. i am just trying to find what i need to get dressed and ready, but i start puking. i try to yell, but my tongue is swollen and i am losing my voice. i find out they are planning to tear my wall down and need my whole room rearranged now! no one gave me any notice. i go to the living room and my roommates and my cousin tell me that they took a vote, and i am being evicted! what! i am so pissed, but i can barely squeak!  i ask my cousin to help me call in sick to work, and damos answers. i did not know he worked at home instead!  i am nervous to tell him i am throwing up, because i think i might be pregnant, and i am not sure if the baby would be his or erik's!  very stressful dream.  third time a bathtub has appeared in my dreams lately, though i did soak at common grounds a couple nights ago. i awoke with my mouth very dry which accounts somewhat for the swollen tongue feeling, although i am not sick now. i see the bathtub as trying to contain my emotions, but once again, things are getting  wet as water splashes out. puking is also a common theme in my dreams, and can represent purging, getting rid of things that are bad and need to be released, especially things inside me that i want to change (character flaws) also there has been talk of pregnancy, though i do not feel ready for that, it has been on my mind. ironically,  i have not seen damos or erik in over a year now, and i never slept with erik.  losing my voice has to do with not being able to express myself, and tearing down my wall could also be another metaphor for the need to let things out, though i am not sure what it is that i am repressing. the wall being torn down, and me getting evicted probably has to do with my worries and insecurities about the house, which needs a lot of work, and i am behind on bills. pregnancy also represents creativity and projects, so maybe i need to set aside more time for art and creative self expression. if you don't use that voice, you will lose it!

cambio de repuesto?

i am stuck in mexico, wondering how to say spare change?, in spanish. i am polishing my nails golden, walking in the market, i over hear two young american kids talking about nail polish and money. the boy has an unusual round ten dollar bill which is from some movie (keanu reeves?) he is wondering if it is worth anything, i tell him i think it is neat and ask the girl how do you say spare change? she is telling me and hands me 7$ american. i tell her that is too much, i can only accept 1$. there is a line of ragged prisoners tied up on the beach some of them seem familiar, like rainbow family. i marvel at how simple everything is here. in the water there are a couple of beautiful glowing ponies, frolicking in and out of a fenced "pasture" in the sea. outside the fence, also in the water, there are many people walking by. i really want to greet and pet the ponies,(maybe mules) but an older mexican man tells me no, that is not safe. i want to get around the fencing to another part of the beach, but i ca't really figure out how. i wake up pondering... i usually never paint my nails, but was recently considering getting a manicure from my cousin,(though i can't really afford it.) i went out with katy last night to dup. frank was telling me about his website www.spange.com?.  i told him that my friend had just told me that many who are spiritually in tune will be starting businesses and websites around now, which rang true, as many of my friends who are interested in the spiritual life are doing just that!  interesting times! keanu reeves is relevant to the keanu code, but i am not sure if it was him on the money or some other actor. not sure what the playful ponies represent. yesterday was a very good and synchronous day, my dreamlife has been rich and insightful this past week as i have written them almost every morning, and my dream group went really well too yesterday. the night before last i had a strange discomforting dream, which i did not post due to its private nature, but there is a general theme of increasing abundance, puging and getting rid of unneeded crap, and working hard now for future gain. oh, i was also creating art in a dream last night, and that is definitely my dream telling me i need to paint!

tom waits

i dream that tom waits is my roommate and we are riding bikes downtown. i am riding his bike, and i notice it is very hard to ride. it is so tall and i am leaning way forward. he says it is because it is a racing bike, but i notice the front wheel is very small and has no tire, i am riding on the rim. i apologize profusely telling him i will get him a new wheel. in another scenario, winter tells me that collin will be working in the whitehouse!  these dreams seem quite random and out of context...will have to think on them...

magic school

we are taking a magic class (harry potter style) our challenge is to use our faith and intention to travel on what seems an ordinary sheet of plywood, but when we focus and believe, it will hover and fly.  my partner and i are trying to ride the thing, but it keeps stopping and we fall off. we are going up a giant flight of stairs, and i try to free climb, finding a new challenge at each steep treacherous step. hand grips and supports fall off, there are machines that tell you to dance on a tiny ledge, and other strange assignments. we were given some magical food (biscuits with jelly and some other things) which helps us make our plywood fly, but we must ration it to last for our entire quest. we are trying to cross a river on our plywood, but we keep falling in. finally our instructor comes to tell us we are out of time and tows us back to shore, telling us that class is over for today,  and we will have to try again tomorrow.  my partner is tired, hungry and discouraged and wants to eat all the magical food.  i try to tell her we must save it for tomorrow's challenge, and i am trying to find some regular food for us instead, because those biscuits and jelly are mighty tasty and tempting!.....i wake up to write this dream and binge on my leftover valentines chocolate! i meant to save it in my purse to share with friends, but i ate it all.  this dream is a clear metaphor for life. each day we face many challenges, and we must focus with all our ability on our faith and intention in order to achieve goals, or even just to survive! if our focus or faith wavers, we fall and must try again. if we give in to temptation, we can be led astray and miss our goal. things go wrong, but we must keep striving. there are teachers who can lead us and advise us, but our strong will tells us to do it our own way. often those teachers aren't around when we are struggling, but come at the end of the day to remind us of our mistakes.  this was a very insightful dream, but i still compulsively ate the chocolate (eating healthy is an important goal i am struggling with.) now that the temptation is gone, i will renew my intention and go get some regular (healthy) food and stay true to my goal of getting my butt to the gym this morning!

journeys

dreamed my father had returned from a long journey with uncle don before he died. i got home and was surprised to see him standing there, smiling. he had shaved his beard and his hair was dark again, he looked young.  we had been staying in his nice home, taking care of it, and he was disappointed that there was dog poop all over the yard. i was proud of the way we had kept the place, and felt that was an unimportant detail. he showed us a slide show of his trip, and i was pointing out a shot to zelah where we were rolling head over heals down a steep sand dune into the sea. saying how much fun it had been, how it was steeper than it looked, and how warm and blue the sea had been. there also seemed to be video footage of a boat ride, and some kind of strange pilgrimage with severely deformed people climbing a steep cliff. we sat down to dinner with mom, and had an in depth conversation about politics, money, and freedom. my dad was saying that wealth increased  freedom, and i got angry with him and said that as wealth was hoarded by the minority, freedom was decreasing for the majority (the poor). we argued and i got very emotional, standing up and shouting nothing will change until you realize that I AM EXACTLY THE PERSON THAT YOU RAISED ME TO BE!

shopping again

several recurring images and themes in last night's dream...a bathtub over flowing, which we seemed to be viewing remotely on a video screen that was recording occurrences in in reb and josh's house from which they were being evicted. we were going there, maybe to retrieve belongings, riding a bus. reb made insulting remarks about my hairdo and my sense of style, and my cooking. i slapped her face which seemed horribly disfigured, scarred from a fire perhaps, but with open sores as well. i said something like, " i told you i would slap you if you ever insulted me again," and then after that we seemed to be friends again, stopping at an open market and a thrift store where her friend worked, (maybe kendra?) her friend would let us have whatever we wanted for free. isreal and zelah were small again, and all of us did not have much since the eviction. the store was odd, and didn't have much in the way of useful clothes, but we found a lot of hats and very artsy short miniskirts, not very good for this rainy winter day. we picked out a few things, but i said i wanted to give a donation if i could just find a nice dress. and i wanted something warm for zelah so i got her a blanket/ poncho to wrap up in.  i went to find the donation, and i was embarrassed because my purse spilled everywhere and the lady saw that i had weed in there. it was ok though, she accepted a nug as part of the donation.

fairie gathering

in the woods, a magical house with charming leprechaun children with green glowing eyes. every one is talking about ravens and raven feathers. conundrum takes a bath and the water is flooding onto the floor. i scoop it up and pour it out the window, watching as it creates a little stream and waterfall. i see a raven. connundrum won't get out of my space so that i can have my bath. he wants to talk, but i just want to be alone.  i tell him to talk to mary ellen, she likes ravens. i think we should buy this little house, but the salesman is trying to sell me a new oldsmobile instead. half now, half later. hmm, i will think about it...

driving blind

was waiting for a yoga class to begin, teacher running late, dozed off in my car. dreamed she came and asked me for a ride, i was driving full speed, but could not see where i was going. trying to adjust the seat, mirrors, etc. still could not see. showed her my eyes and they were very messed up. then she told me to pull over and she would drive, but she could not control the car either, kept going off the road, almost hitting a flock of geese, pedestrians etc. woke up several times and dozed off again, could not shake the drowsy feeling. don't know if teacher ever arrived or not. hours passed. finally drove home with sunglasses on. really need to get my eyes checked!

last night i dreamt...

i was traveling, i had to climb up a dangerous ledge.  some men saw me up there and i had to hide.  i left my bag of my art on the ledge and there was no way to retrieve them.  i went to a big parking lot and ran into sparrow and babs.  they were getting ready for a rainbow event.  a man came up and i said i liked his tshirt.  he said ELO is playing tonight are you going?  i said probably not, i don't have a ticket.  he said i will give you a ticket.  i said okay, but we drove separately, so i will follow you.  i went to get in my car, but someone had stolen the door!  everything else was there, but no door.  there was a freebox, and free wine, but they wanted me to fill out a form so that they could keep there rainbow party parking lot going.   i was hesitant to sign the form, but they did have a good thing going.