urban camping

gar, my sister? and i are moving in with my mom? into a big house in the suburbs that has separate apartments, but my space will be a large tent on a large covered patio.  i am ok with this, and am trying to get my things organized in a functional way, but i get snippy when i feel criticized based on my lack of feng shui. i say if i get criticized about feng shui one more time i will take my tent ant things and move far out to the wilderness away from all the humans! z is a kiddo eating a granola bar that is specially design to be good for kids teeeth. but she says " after this i want candy!" i am explaining to her that she will not be getting any. my mom brings me a gift. but it seems to be nothing but a box full of packing tissue confetti and candy wrappers. it rains and the tent leaks, mom is concerned about me seeing the neighbor in her lingerie, because we will be sharing a bathroom. i am more concerned about her getting tired of hearing us argue and what about my sex life... ugh... problems.

time travel

i was back in the 1930's i believe, and going shopping with damos at a neat little store. he was looking for ear baubles and finger bells, and he wanted to be sure the finger bells would fit well, but i explained that you just sew them to custom fit your fingers. didn't find it odd that he needed them. we were going to meet his family, and was worried that they wouldn't like him dating a white lady.

dreams and nightmares

winter has asked me to help with her food cart, and we are setting up in my old trailer which is all fixed up. we are making wontons, like funky puffs only somehow healthier. i tell her my mom said wontons would be good. i am also advising her to get a mule or two large goats to pull the trailer. she says no way! but i'm like look, then you'd have goat milk, you can use the hair to knit sweaters, and you can charge 1$ for kids to pet them! then we are having a birthday party for the kids at an ice rink. at first everything is fine, then the kids put skates on thier hands too, then the ice all melts and it turns into a swimming pool, and we are complaining to the management that we paid to rent an icerink, not a swimming pool. later kevvy is giving someone a haircut. i make some remark, and he comes over to give me and baby zelah a hug. somehow he accidentally breaks zelah's neck and she dies. he doesn't realize what he has done, but i am devastated. lots of strange ones lately.

pizza with canadian bacon please...

visiting canada in my dream. it is snowing again, but we are preparing for a huge party on a college campus there are hundreds of pizzas and giant jugs of beer. this is what i was raised to think the college experience would be all about. thanks hollywood!

flying through snow

two powerful dream images last night. in one i was teaching eric how to fly. he had cut off his long hair.  i opened the window and it was snowing heavily.  i leaned out to take off, but it was very high, i had a moment of doubt, and eric pulled me back inside. in the room i flew around, and showed him that diamond and trogdor could fly too. then we were going to bed, in separate beds in the room. (reminds me a bit of a recent dream about the cabin in california and trying to find a bed that was unoccupied. in that dream i was given a charge to take care of colin.)
   in this other dream, i was in the woods, (beltain?) and i was blessed and given gifts by three goddesses. artemis, aphrodite, and ( eris? ) the gifts were beautiful lengths of fabric, like saris, hand dyed in rich hues. i was trying them on and choosing my favorite. also there was some kind of sale, with many bicycles, i wanted a red one. after the sale a man let me have one. another man had sent flowers and i received love letters as well. as i was sitting reading over the letters, trying to discern who had sent the gifts, i was explaining how happy and blessed i was, but that i was unsure who to thank because my memory was so bad with names that i was not sure who these kind men were. the man i was talking to just got up and walked away, so i think it was him that gave me the bicycle and one of the letters, and i felt very bad that i had offended him when i wanted to thank him. ( i think this dream says a lot about being grateful for all my blessings, which i have been working on, and i have also been reading and meditating on goddess energies. it also says something about my relationship choices with men.  i have had many wonderful relationships with men, but many challenging problems in that department as well. i am always thinking i could find a better relationship when i have struggles with the one i am with. ie., the one that got away. i know that i need to own my share of the problem, and look at what i can do to improve the way i interact with a partner in order to learn how to co-create a healthy relationship. perhaps being more present, having gratitude for gifts, and remembering past lessons is a key this dream was offering me. perhaps this will help me fly.)

last night i was flying an airplane through a thick forest of giant trees with sal, then i was in a tree trying to figure out how to get down, or get the plane flying again. strong deja vu that i have had a similar dream before. late we were doing research on a live chupacabra specimen. it looked like a mis-shaped pig. then i was moving into an apartment with rob? (and prin) and his girlfriend who looked like karen. they wanted to do my hair and do a dance # with me. my hair was much longer and fuller and brown. i was looking through some cassettes, but couldn't find a suitable one. they left and i discovered they had "cleaned out" my freezer and thrown out over 75$ worth of food! i was pissed and kept punching pillows. then i apologized for my  outrage and explained that if they did not decide which of my things was garbage, i would extend them the same courtesy. i went outside for some air and found a giant amazing garden that apparently everett had planted. i was checking it out and i caught the neighbor stealing dirt with a device that went over the fence to scoop it up. i asked rob if he was aware of this. it seemed they had a lot of animals in a very small yard, and needed the soil for pet litter. then more guests arrived with their children, some of which were deformed or mentally challenged, but still quite charming. this dream certainly reflects my waking life as of late.

struck by lightning

visiting aunt laurie and her new "man friend"? in a cute cottage where each room has its own theme. she complains that he wants to make a commitment with her, but only wants sex once a month. i tell her he is probably a christian. i am resting on the couch when lightning strikes the house, making a hole in the roof and sending a pile of old leaves and stuff down onto my head! i am concerned that the roof is on fire, but it seems we are spared from that. then we are planning to by a hair salon as an investment for a friend in prison, and checking into the legalities. hmm.