parade

i am altering a vest for brad to wear to a wedding. taking two panels out, several inches. it seems he has lost a bit of weight, we joke about needing to let it out again later. i am showing him a video we made of a parade we did. i am wearing a very elaborate rainbow cape/wings that i made, and there is a giant rolling beer car for zelah to ride in. it is a commercial for something. i am telling him that we always wanted to do this.

worms

twice lately in dreams i have had worms extruding from my hands and feet. trying to find a cure for this parasitic invasion.

receiving shakti-pat

had not written dreams down for several nights. had been reading and sharing some information about shakti. decided to sleep with my head at the foot of the bed.  was dreaming along (maybe something about noah?) suddenly felt i had aligned with some sort of dream nexxus or target, entered a state of half sleep, received a clear vision, of a man that reminded me of joe piscadlo. he quickly dropped into a warrior III position and shot an arrow of energy/light right at me. i immediately felt that i was "receiving shaktipat" and a strong urge to seal in the energy by placing my finger on my clittorus.  afterwards i received an image that i needed to clean out the litterbox, physically and metaphorically. i was then directed by intuition to lie in reclined cobbler, contemplate and remember what i could about this experience and do the heart polishing estaferallah exercise.  i have been receiving strong synchronous and dream messages about awakening/ embodying divine feminine energy (shakti) lately. i have also had strong urges to make positive changes in my habits and lifestyle, which i have been working on. the "litterbox vision" is a clear directive to continue work on this inner and outer spring cleaning. i was further awakened by my dog coming to lie with me and i felt confused that he approached from the left side, as i was a bit disoriented by being "upside down" in my bed. i also had a good talk with my mother and my daughter this evening. i have a strong feeling that i am being prepared to take large strides now in my yoga practice, dreamwork, spiritual and life path. these simple, powerful visions tell me i am on the right path and am being rewarded for diligence. now to humbly continue the work.

bling

i am making a beautiful sparkling mermaid jingle-belt with green and orange shimmering fringe for a young z in our belly dance class. mary ellen and the two of us are piled on a tiny bicycle carrying gear, going down steep hills. almost crash more than once and i say "i don't think this tiny bike is designed for this," but we are ok. cleaning up massive garbage/ homeless hunter's camps in the woods, they arrive and are not happy,,, lots of strange ones last night...

top model hawaii

going to hawaii for some fancy modeling contest. going too stay with aunt b.aunt patti seems jealous. swimming in the open sea beyond view of land or boat. ordering a simple salad from a fancy restaurant. trying to decide what to wear, playing dress up with the ladies, they start bustin' out freestyle rap with harmony- lovely. restaurant refuses to serve half of our group, i share my salad with z. back home damos invites me to a luau, and i am trying to decide if i am too tired.- royals

everything always goes wrong...

caring for jeannette/becky refinishing hardwood floors. showing my mother the hallway i painted, blue with light blue trim, purple floor, and each doorway a different color. the floors are almost done, but the fire alarm goes off. not sure why.  we are able to turn the alarm off, but then the sprinklers are going off! we get jeannette outside, wet and cold. try to find her some dry clothes, but they are way too small. she runs into the house yelling, "i'm cold, i'm cold!" we get the water turned off and get her a burrito, of course she wants hers a certain way, and i am eating the rejects. there is a lot of water every where, and i try to mop it up, but it is quite deep. i use a shop vac. the new finish is peeling up every where, i try to scrub it off with a broom, but i am pretty sure i can fix it.

wild ride

sunny day, riding to the river in a van with jasin fell. (hippie) i am driving his van, brakes are lousy. get pulled over for speeding, but can't stop. finally he switches places with me and he is able to stop the van. the cops know him and give him a hard time but no ticket. down by the river it is very crowded, we must park and walk a ways carrying gear. it is like a rainbow gathering in portland, crazy wingnut hippies everywhere. jasin takes off somewhere and i am floating on an air mattress with my sleeping bag and gear. i think i am going to float to shore , but obviously my sleeping bag gets wet and heavy and things start sinking. somehow i make it to shore and there is a rainbow kitchen, with people cooking and complaining how hard it is to get anything done with so many lazy people everywhere. i tease them, relaxing on my mattress saying yep, i been all over, lazy people everywhere! i am playing with the children, it is someone's birthday, i decide to take a shower, but i get water all over the floor. trying to clean it up. -(pink cadillac)

yoga class anxieties

Debra and the ladies are arriving and the room is a mess. furniture everywhere. i don't know how many chairs to set  out, and more students keep arriving, college students that have seen my ad are coming, talkative, rearranging everything, bringing children and dogs, i keep trying to teach and adapt to the chaos, continually moving more furniture out of the way, but kids just won't settle down and focus. some students leave in frustration. at one point it turns into a circle dance.  in another scenario, i am driving down a terrible road, trying to find "grandpa's farm" an old rainbow farm...more obstacles and struggles ensue.

grandy is lost

traveling with z and wanderlust in a bus. they have a carousel of pole dancers and i want to get on. i am not in the show, but it seems they need more dancers, so i just go for it. i thought they would put me in when they saw me dance, but noah is not amused. the bus stops at a beach town and we see several small geysers. grandma kay and i get off the bus and are trying to cross the road in traffic. we find a kitten and decide to adopt it. later every one is going on the bus to the next town, and we realize that grandy is not aboard. they say "she will be fine," but i tell them she is crazy, has no money, and no i.d. my mother and winter offer to drive back to the town with me to find her. later i do a lovely dance with 2 swords. surely this is the act they need to spice up the show?

scrapping

scrapping on my bicycle, looking at toys and doll house furniture with a young z. realize i have left my purse in the open with contents spilling out and lots of people around, concerned they will steal things.  for some reason i must carry my bike down a fire escape ladder. it is rusted and falling off the building. i make it safely to the ground, but realize i have left things up at the top, and don't know how i will be able to climb back up. (much more)
-(everything she wants -george micheal)

alien child

i have given birth to a small greyish malformed baby. my sister babysits for a time, and when the child comes back to me it has grown some and is walking. i am very upset that i have missed seeing it take its first steps. then it is decided that the child is a special incarnation and must be devoted to shiva and raised in a temple. later i am visiting him in the temple he is grown now, and there are sacred objects i would like to offer a trade for, but all i have to trade are some tiny crystals and some opium, which is crumbling and spilling as i look through my bag, thinking that is not appropriate, but i offer to trade the crystal for a woven dreamcatcher like object. they will not accept the trade, but do offer to let us stay for a meal.